It's not as if I'm fat, I'm just a little larger in some places than I'd like to be. It's difficult to explain to other people who look at me and say I look fine. I don't feel fine, I have days where I look at myself in the mirror and wish I looked like someone else. This doesn't stop me stuffing my face with all the wrong things though!
It's been nearly 8 weeks since I fell off the Weight Watchers wagon, and although I've only put a couple of pounds back on, I can feel my trousers getting tighter again. I can see the bulge of my stomach starting to return, along with the thighs that rub together and the flab that sits above my bra and under my armpits. It's not always been this way, I used to be 2 stones and 2 dress sizes smaller than this. Unfortunately at times back then I still thought I didn't have the perfect figure. A lot of this is down to an ex who would put a lot of pressure on me about my weight (when I was 8.5 stone!), the rest is self esteem and confidence.
So today I am getting back on the wagon. I don't want to be too skinny again. I look back and even though the ex thought I was fat, I actually realise that I was too thin in those days. I'd like to keep the curves I have now, but without the extra flab. If I could have a flat-ish stomach, and less flabby thighs. I'd like to be about the size I was when I met my husband.
I'm going to use this photo as a reminder.
I'm going to use this photo as a reminder.
Oh and I'd like to be thinner in the face again!
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